2008

Happy New Year everyone! I really hope what Jonathan Cainer said on Jools Holland's Hootenanny was right and that it will be a 'stonking' year.

Well I can't be the only one who is sat here thinking this, but I really need a new job. I wonder if anyone else is stuck in the same situation that I am. I have no idea where start looking for a new one. I think I even want to change careers, though my job is hardly a 'career' anyway and it has got less and less like the job I was employed to do as time progresses, so maybe it's just put me off. The other problem is, even if I want to stay in the same field, there are so few opportunities around. I don't even know what I am in terms of job title and so on, because I know bits and pieces of different things and nothing in particular.

It's not like being something straight forward like a receptionist of a plumber or something, so that makes it all the more difficult to find a job or even a company to send a speculative letter to. I keep looking up companies on the internet and in the Yellow Pages and then discovering the category they come under really doesn't describe them or what they do at all. I can pick out two separate companies under the same heading and they will be completely different. I suppose everything is going this way now, very ambiguous and not really anything in particular and confusing because noone has a clue what anything is supposed to be. It sums up how I feel about my current job too, and the company I work at as well. I keep getting the feeling that my job is like a metaphor for the state of the country, confusing, badly organised, directionless, ambiguous, uninspired and full of bitter people.

I was thinking on going to another country for a year or six months on some sort of working holiday thing, just to see what it's like in other places. I think I hate this country now. The only thing is, if it turned out that everywhere else is just the same or worse, I don't know what I'll do then.

Well I suppose sometimes when things feel really bad they have to start to get better eventually so maybe something will come up, but I just feel so trapped at the moment.

Talking of Jools Holland, I liked Seasick Steve's country blues music on that programme so I've ordered one of his CDs. The only thing is that I ordered it with another CD which is out of stock so it will take something like three weeks until it's dispatched. That could be a good thing though, it will probably turn up when I've forgotten that I ordered it so it will be a nice surprise.